Grindin’

Hard at work

I’m in the season of Grind

Currently, I have a full-time job as an essential employee managing multiple social service programs. The position takes up a lot of my time.

Often I am left with the dilemma…

Go to bed at a relatively decent hour

or

Blow past my exhaustion to stay up a few extra hours

I have fantasized about getting some sleep while wrapped in the coziness of my ruffled comforter on my drive to the house. I have contemplated taking a nap in the closet after rushing home from work. I have considered passing out on the floor as my kids take baths. I may have micro-dosed a few times during homework time with the kids. And, I blinked a little too long at the dinner table and painted my shirt with food.

Buuuttttttt… I do not give into temptation to hibernate or ditch the family to get my quick fix of sleep because that is not what I expect of myself.

After I put the kids to bed, I called a family member for a weekly check-in. I compiled tasks for my To-Do-List for the next day and the remainder of the week. I linked up with my husband to work and discuss business ideas, and the session transformed into talk that built both of our emotional intimacy. I read a chapter of an interesting book. I scrolled through social media and wrote in my journal to decompress from lingering thoughts of the day. Finally, I laid in bed and fell asleep in .05 seconds.

The couple hours I used to push through my lethargy led to a great night. I do not do this every night, but most days I set a few goals to foster intentionality. And owning my time every day has to be enough.